week 4 exercise, week 2 of diet

well this is our 4th week of morning gym time…I have gone 5 days a week for three weeks straight. This week that streat will be broken because Daniel and I will be driving to Colorado on Thursday, but I am not going to worry too much about that. I am very proud of myself and am still liking the early morning and getting it over with, its going good. I can see the difference in my body already and this one tight button up shirt I have is a bit loser and doesnt pull as much as it once did!

I am also one week down with being on Weight Watchers. It is suprisingly very balanced and easy, I am really enjoying it and seeing how I can incorparate little treats but how not to over do it. Its ok to have that cheese burger sometimes, like once a week, but not that amongst other bad foods throughout the week. Its about being aware of not over eating but not limiting yourself to only fruits and veg. These are the best options that you can have more of, but the freedom to me is so nice because I tend to say..oh I blew it..and throw away another week or two. I am hoping with the exercise and WW I will see a gradual loss. On Saturday I had lost 3 lbs. Slow and steady and thats fine with me.

All in all I am feeling great about myself and hope to stick strong as the next three weekends are away at fun events, I am going to work hard during the week and save a bit for the possiblity of having to eat outside of the norm.

I am happy with the progress so far! Its not 15 lbs but I am feeling so much better!

Positive Progress

well you will be happy to know that I have now finished day 10 of working out in our two weeks of early morning work outs! Yes! I feel pretty great about it and am still enjoying it even after all this time. Even my sisters boyfriend joined the gym this week and met us there at 530 this morning as well. My body is slowly getting used to it and my energy and overall outlook on myself and life is much more positive.

I have not been eating very well however, one step at a time. I restocked on all my good foods but I must admit I had a strong hankerin (haha) for chocolate this week and finished off two bags of m&ms  on different nights, yet still. I need to combine both working out and eating if I really want to do this. With that said, I plan on joining Weight Watchers this Saturday, for real this time. I thought about before but was not keen on going at 730 am on a Saturday morning. This class is at 1030 (much more reasonable if you ask me) and two of my new favorite friends are already going. They are super encouraging and real so it will be nice to be there with them and they have already lost quite a bit!

Overall I am feeling good. Myself and my mom have already been told that people can see a difference already, which is amazing. Mostly I am excited because I feel better, I feel tighter and can tell a difference in my body already. I have not lost a pound, rather have gone up frankly, but if that is still the case after combining it with right eating I will let you know.

Thank goodness for RE determination and support.

mornings**

So we have started this new thing where Daniel and I are meeting my mom at the gym between 545 and 6. Ok when i say we are doing this thing I mean that we have gone two times in the morning. I thought I was going to loath it, but turns out I am rather enjoying it. We did a shorter set of cardio and arms today which gave me more time to get ready before work which was nice. I have more energy but need to watch that I am getting all my water in because I got a massive head ache this afternoon, this is the only thing I could think would have been the cause of that?

I have found just knowing that Daniel and my mom are up and going is enough and I really need that accountability to just get my butt there. There is something about the afternoons that I dont like having to work myself up into wanting to go. This way I dont have to think, I just wake up and go..so I hope we can keep this up.

The goal at the moment Daniel has set for me is 4 days a week at the gym at the minimum…I have done three so far and tomorrow is my day off, we shall see. Daniel thinks if I stick to this that I can lose 15lbs in a month, not sure but I would like to start challenging myself for a change. I really do need to take it one day at a time.

As I have been rethinking my problem with food I realize I coorilate fun with food, but not just any food, BAD food!  On Saturday we went to dinner at a burger type place and I just didnt feel as excited about being there without being able to get fries at least! I didnt and had a lime shrimp skewer and steamed brocolli. It was weird how I told myself I surley would not be full from that, but I was.

I pray the Lord helps me to realize my wrong thinking towards food so I can change this.

and here we go, once again…

new workout

So I have agreed to let Daniel train me,he obviously knows a lot about working out as he had to do a lot of it for football in college and he also ran track, so we shall see.

Tonight he joined my gym so he will be working out with my mom and I and trying to kick our butts into shape. I had him right out a work out plan last night so my mom and I did it today at the gym. We are a little bit shakey now! But doesnt that mean that its working? I also did this stepper glider type thing today, tried to do it for 40 minutes, i got to 17 minutes and then wanted to throw up. I think I will pace myself on that one.

Anyways, Daniels prediction is that I can lose 15lbs in a month if i do this consistantly. The minimum is 4 days a week, tomorrow we are going to try to go before work..grrr…we shall see how that works out..I do like the fact that I can go home right after work.

As far as eating just sticking to the healthy options mostly.

Will keep you posted.

here it is, can you believe it?

Hi Pete and Brit….(and whomever else in blog land)

I have had a horrible month, thank you to you guys for saying something..and thanks Pete for your words of encouragement, I really needed them and continue to be inspired by your determination.

I just stopped caring, and thats the truth. I gained back all that I had lost and noticed myself feeling more and more depressed from all the junk that I was putting in my body.

I sometimes would love to get some sort of professional help about it and why I do it. My lack of self discipline is at the top of my known reasons. If I had the money I would do Jenny Craig just for the one on one, thats what I loved about Pure Weight LOss and why I did so good I think..the accountability. I have just been struggling…and I frustrate myself.

I have been back on track this week, trying to stick to my whole wheats and fruits and veggies, I already am back down two pounds but this can not be how I live life…up down up down….my gramma did it all her life and ended up with major health problems. Granted her weightloss and gain was in way bigger amounts, but still.

Daniel and I watched Super Size Me last night. I had seen it before but its a good reminder of what bad food can do to your health..man. It is in on Hulu.com if you want to see it yourself. Very eye opening.

So here i am to try again..praying the Lord will change me and do it for the long haul. It is an addiction that is hard to break, thats what I am realizing.

the truth is….

ahh, I have been avioding this blog as you may have noticed, but I have been constantly running through my head what I was going to say when I did make it back here…here it is…

I have fallen off the weightloss wagon and can’t seem to pull myself back up again…I am highly disappointed in myself. Last week is when it started, a very busy and high stress week when it was easier to grab fast food and I could care less because I was so tired and drained…that led into this week which started with a trip to costco but with the conclusion that I would never consume THAT MUCH fruit before it went bad Daniel ended up with a cart full of frozen yuckiness which in essence calls the name of the one who has not been able to get to the store to replenish the good foods….URG!

The truth is that I HATE HATE HATE that I am such an all or nothing person. I couldnt just have a bad couple days, no, now that I had given in I might as well wait to start back until I am completley commited..that is going to get me NOWHERE FAST! I had to get myself back to this blog to at least admit the truth and ask anyone who comes across this for any tips or encouragement I can squeeze out of you…I really have felt crappy over these days, so lathargic and much more tired..my body hasnt seen the gym and just the defeat of it all has made my outlook on life much worse..its amazing how it can effect you in that way.

However, my awareness has been awake…I try to recognize why I am eating at least to put my finger on it. The conclusion above all is that I am lazy and would rather grab something on the go or warm something up in the microwave than take the time I need to to properly nourish my body. This mindset along with the fact that I want to and its good makes for a fat body..that simple. It is a bit like a reward to myself as well, like I am tired, stressed…here have a milkshake self. Rediculous.

I hope I can pop out of this soon and not get sucked back in and have to wait to see another double chin picture of myself before I can kick myself in the rear and get back on track…Help!

another day, a few more ounces…

this week has been an ok week, not strict in any means…I was craving chocolate last night and had a bag of m&ms and that was bad and GOOD! I think I am moving a bit more because of cheerleading practice and was only able to get to the gym twice this week…but again, its something..Daniel even said he could see more definition in my back last night..which means those pull downs must be helping somewhat!

This morning I was down to 164, not a solid, but it was nice to see…I will have to be extremley strict this week if I am to lose 3 more pounds, but I am not going to freak out about it..this is a really busy week with cheer…so MUCH to do!

Its been nearly a month..which I take great pride in, that I am still going! I started writing on December 29th, so four more days…7 pounds down ..19 more to go to get to 145…boy it sounds forever away..

here we go…

feeling good…

I am holding at 165 but I am feeling great…you know when you can start feeling in your body that it feels different, more tight, like something is missing…YES! Its a great feeling. I am excited to take my measurements again at the end of next week, they are surley less..which, while the scale may be moving more slowly..losing inches is what makes you look smaller as well as fit in your clothes more comfortably…I am all for that….

I am currently on the up swing and although not full blown about working my butt off at the gym (although I have been twice this week, which is something) I feel like I am getting into “the groove”. Daniel and I went out to eat on Monday and I chose the chicken sandwhich with a side of applesauce. Yeah it may not be my favorite thing at the resteraunt but I was saying in my head, its about the best choice MOST of the time. It can not be the best choice SOMETIMES…I hope my subcounsious is grasping this concept in depth.

Knowing we were going out on Monday night I checked some of our local resteraunts (sit down) and the lowest calorie dishes and made notes in the back of my food journal..also mental notes. Some meals can be way over a full days calories (which I am sure we all know but dont think about when we just WANT it) but ..for example..Olive Garden. The thing I get there most commonly is soup and salad…If you have one bowl of Zuppa toscana (who doesnt love this one??) 2 servings of salad avoiding crutons and one breadstick…it is 920 calories..a bit over what an average meal might need to be…but pretty low on the calorie scale for an out on the town meal. Another one of my favorites is Road House Grill, where I get the Harvester Salad with Lemon Dill Dressing (yumm). But how can you go to Roadhouse without drooling over those suculent rolls…well for my favorite meal there this is the calorie break down….

Harvester Salad – 910, Lemon Dill Dressing (2 tbs) – 130, Roll -110, Honey Butter (1tbs) – 100 for a whopping :1250

Its a sad but true reality, not that I eat at these places weekly, but its good to be aware of…you can count on my consuming these 1250 the next time I am there, however…it is hard to stop with just one roll…they do melt in your mouth….

Anyways, my goal is to simply be more aware..its the times when I dont care and just eat to my hearts content and dont even realize that I could be eating 3000 calories and up per day, which is not going to help in even maintaining weight.

After reading a portion of “Fit Girl for Life”s blog I realized my relationship towards food is much as she described her own, as a source of entertainment. When I am out and about its a luxury or a treat or just sounds fun…very strange but so true.

Well the PRICE IS RIGHT just came on and my friend Eric is on so I have to stop and watch…

till later!

one small victory

a few posts back Pete wrote me this…

“You’ve plateaued as my doc would call it. It’s a natural body response to loss of weight and may last for a few weeks. Don’t give up hope. For me a bad day or twos eating seems to cure it but thats a very risky thing to do and thankfully I’ve only done it once or twice. (More by mistake than intention – but the help was duely noted)”

I would say he was right because I was down to my lowest at 165 this morning, horray! So I am trying to be back on as best I can, I need to get back to drinking all my water, I know it will help. This small victory will kick me back into mode so I can get back to going on…

I checked my old Pure Weight Loss diary from when I lost all the weight the first time..I noticed as I wrote my weight in it was quite similar going up and down day to day nearly for the first month, that was encouraging to be reminded of that it is kind of what my body does. I would like to lose 4 more pounds by the end of this month, we shall see…

I have been thinking a bit about my mind frame towards food, I hope to write more about that soon.

Thanks for the advice Pete, it was a good reminder! I will try not to lose more weight by loading up on the bad things every week, haha..I wish:)

The lifestyle is the goal..and on I go….

determination doesnt come easily…

this week has not been the best for me…

I mananged to get to the gym twice this week with a goal to go today as well but I was so tired this morning I couldnt make myself get my gym clothes together..maybe I can make something out tomorrow…

in case you were wondering I didnt do Slim in 6 that afternoon and Daniel and I went to Red Robin after the game and I ate French Fries!!! What? but they were good…yesterday I went to Olive Garden with my friends and had the soup and salad..not the worst choice yet still not strictly to my plan and then of all things I also went to Pizza FActory with Daniel after practice last night because we have no food at home at the moment…I also have not been writing much down in my food journal because…well…Im not exactly on plan…but i suppose it would help to track it to see anyways..I got the Antipasto salad last night and had one slice of Daniels pizza. I also have not been getting all my water, especially yesterday and boy have I been thirsty..strange that.

Anyways, I am going grocery shopping this afternoon going to try to get stored back up on all the goods I need to stay on track..will let you know the weight good bad or THE SAME…on Sunday or Monday…urg…Im trying to push on no matter this upsetting week…